Is it easy to Trust people?? Is it okay to take some one at face value ?? is it easy to accept and look to a trusting relationship?? Be it your own or unknown,But,why would you trust someone Unknown ?? Well, then how about some one known some one your own ,is it okay to lose Trust is it okay to be Doubtful is it okay to be suspicious ?? What comes next ? what does one do from there on ? How do you question the person in concern,how do I confront ? where do I begin ? Do I have substantial proof or is it another piece of my imagination ?? What impact is it gonna make ?? Am I gonna get any closer or Am I gonna be faced with more lies ??What are the chances of finding the truth......Is this what I want ?? The Truth.......
Working at a fast pace,I collect all my thoughts,The memories of the recent past.Although I tried to get rid of most of them....its hard for this Aries mind to forget some of them. Is this a Good sign or a Bad one, only time will tell. I'm not in the habit of dwelling into the past,its more like the Past comes back to haunt me as a reminder or as a savior .I do not forget things easy. If You have been kind and good to me, at one point of my life,I hold it as a debt upon me and shall try my best to repay in Kind. On the other hand,God forbid, You did me some wrong,brought pain and hurt,I shall NEVER forget,May be I shall forgive,But the wound will still linger, its a never healing wound......
Why would I need you in my life ?? If its just that You (Want) Me.Why should I pretend,that all is well ?? Why should I accept You with all your never ending childish tantrums ?? Why should I put up with your never ending Lies ?? Why should I make excuses for You, each time, You say Your busy ?? Knowing You,You may well be with some other woman and Flirting the night away !! Why did I ever accept You each time You came back to Me ?? Was I vulnerable or was it out of pity ?? When I know, I can be better off with some one more Humane, and I don't need another Pervert in my life.Why do I still give you one more chance ?? Searching for the Answer...for... the Truth.....
Are You incapable of knowing what is Hurt,or is it that You derive some kinda sadistic pleasure hurting others ? You chase people who, want You no more,and Ignore the others. I once, Whispered something sweet, in your ears and waited for your response......and in return what I heard was.......{"I like You, but, I like HER a lot more"}......WTF, yep, You reminded Me of a little kid in a candy store, with all the excitement You were in. I dealt with it and carried on,Didn't You notice the Hurt / Pain ? Yet You were the most welcomed person at Home any given day, Invites extended to a Dinner,and you declined to go on a "Dinner Cruise"...I understand its your Life and I have No say...but politeness goes a long way.....
You want Affection, You like being Pampered,You want Friendship,You like My company and My generosity,along with Warmth.....Why cant I expect the same from You, in return ?? Why in the name of ~!@#$% should I give you chances 1,2,3....and put up with the Rea's and the Juan's and a few more ?? Why do I let You come and go, as and when You wish ?? Why is that I see You, ONLY, when You want to see Me ?? Do You know,You are the worst story teller ?? and a Pathetic Liar !! Why the hell do I put up with You ??I'm still on that journey to discover......The Truth.....
It wouldn't have been worth the effort if everything was given to me on a Platter. And on the reverse side,I was given some hints to calculate my Fate.I read people from thousands of miles away,I can sniff a predator out,hidden behind the mask,wasn't the movie of Jekyll and Hyde not enough ?? That I get to meet one in Real !! STOP pulling wool over My eyes....cause..... I Notice things,which people Fail to Notice. I take upon me to Observe and stay Alert...Cause.....I'm the Mother......The Protector......and it is not by fluke I'm called the... "Hawk Mom". I guess...... this is the..... Whole Truth !!
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