Okay,done with the Summer vacation,and its back to school .....oh not Me...talking about my little Munchkin. I thought I was done with it,I mean done with crying and getting all sentimental, looking at my little Baby going off to school.But hey,wait,Surprise Surprise !!! I still haven't gotten over it :(
It wasn't so long ago,I walked "her" to the bus stop,holding her tiny hand,and talking to her or rather to myself,assuring that all would be well and she wouldn't be scared or bullied.She would be safe.Anxious is a mild way to put it,I was a nervous wreck,Although its not allowed for the parent to climb into the Bus,and though the driver tried stopping me,I ignored ,climbed in,to hug "her" tightly and cried like a grown up baby !!! :( In the Afternoon,I would go and wait at the bus stop, half an hr in advance,just so as to,be well on time and, not miss the bus.The moment I would see My baby,her Angelic face all my tension would pass away. I would just grab her and hug her,kissing her all over,I didn't care what others thought or said, My baby was back home and that was all I needed ,My biggest Trophy !!!!.... Years rolled by,and each time after the Summer vacation...when I saw her off to School,I would come back home and cry like a baby. My hubby dear,would call up to see if I was doing ok ?? I would pretend to be ok....but well....how much can one conceal a croaky voice....hehe
Now she's my preteen young adolescent,doesn't need Mommy to walk her to the bus stop....( as I type this I'm all emotional ) doesn't need Mommy to hold her hand, But,I'm still the nervous wreck of a Mother.My role remains the same,where I'm always worried one moment and praying the next. Its so hard to let go.I no more go to the bus stop to drop "her" neither do I go and wait anxiously/ nervously to pick her back from the bus stop. But,I sure wait for her, to call me on the way to school and back home.I love the time, we spend together,My little munchkin. Its a ritual,every single day, before she is off to school,Both of us cuddle up on the couch,as she drinks her "Ensure" or bites into a juicy Apple. We talk and talk and talk,I lend her some Motherly Advice and Motherly Affection. We talk about this and that in whispers,We don't want to wake up the little monster ( my little one ) who is fast asleep. The little one is all of four,and I hate the thought of sending her off to school,it scares me. Come next yr 2013 and she'll be off to school !!! :(
Is it just Me, or are all Mommy's like Me ?? and how is that the father (s) is not that affected ?? When I would tell DH,how I'm missing my Baby and how scared I'm,He would call me Paranoid.... !@#$%^&*() and I would call him heartless... :( I'm dreading to think of the day My little one ( the little monster ) going to school....oh God,help Me....give me the strength...I know ...one day My babies are gonna fly away, As a Mother all I can do is to Pray, that, they find someone in their lives, who would hold their hands and take care of them.......The fact remains.........
"They are My Babies....and shall Always be"
Love You both......Aryaki and Achiraa... muah !!!
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