Loving Myself~~~~

          It has taken me a long time to Love myself.We are such superficial creatures,who look for beauty ,the outward beauty.What about the inner beauty ?? it takes a while to *SEE* the inner beauty isn't it?? So,I wouldn't blame anyone, for liking someone, for that "pretty face". You spend time,with people,learn more about them,and then decide, is it, "like" or is it  "dislike"??

                I have come across, some most gorgeous  faces in my life,with attitude to match and such shallowness. On the other hand I have come across some most gorgeous faces,with such loving nature, warmth and totally down to earth attitude. The gorgeous ones with attitude had underlying issues,one such I remember is "shaswati" a Bong babe. She wasn't any Doll face,yet,she had her nose up in the air,what was she priding herself about??? okay, I agree she had the most gorgeous mane I have ever seen and those dove eyes,which was wide and would get wider when excited or surprised.She had a slender frame, yet again,what was the pride about ???Was it her dusky skin ? or Her slender body ?Was it her job ? She dressed  well ( she worked in the fashion industry) but again what was the pride about??? Women are known to pride themselves,When it comes to beauty,( oh, correct me if I'm wrong) or are in a commendable position,or are married to Riches !!! Shaswati had none...so what was the pride about??? I'm confused here...

              We ( me and my friends) found it a little hard to understand,why was she hiding her husband from us.On the other hand, she would happily chat away with our husband's,and yes flirt around,She would make excuses each time we invited them both,(she and her hubby),  for Lunch or Dinner.She would make a solo appearance with out her husband.This got more and more curious, for us ladies.We had no idea why was she hiding the hubby away.We made assumptions....may be this and may be that.... Finally, the underlying issue,was out in the open and was no more a secret .Yep,one summer day we finally got to meet  Mr.Secret ( accidentally) and if Shaswati could have it her way,she wouldn't have ever, bothered to introduce us to him.Reluctantly,we were all introduced to her husband, and what happened next is hard to believe,She made some lame excuse and abruptly went away,leaving behind a confused husband and few of us were shocked.....God forgive me~~ but the truth is~~ He is the most generous and kind hearted,human being~~ with the most scariest face.Yes, its true...The truth was Shaswati was Ashamed of her husband.....This is when I realized, how shallow can one be ???

           I introduced him to my DH (PP). He was intelligent,smart and funny.In fact, he was a walking, talking encyclopedia.We started spending more and more time together and realized what a good natured person he is.After awhile the scary face was in the shadows and his helping nature,kindness and generosity shone through..... I invited them both, to our annual Diwali party at our place, it was hard for us to digest and notice how Shaswati treated Him.She looked for a place, away from her Husband,which till to date I remember and I feel the pain !!......We, fondly remember Him... But,on the other hand Shaswati...huh, is that nose of yours still up in the Air ???

           I was born a ugly duckling...hehe and I still carry some of the baggage around.I almost went unnoticed in school,if it wasn't for my "A" grades.I was the shy one. College transformed me,from the ugly shy girl,I turned into a Brat...haha.I learned some makeup tricks.I was born with very light eye brows although I have cute pair of eyes,I have that sleepy eyed look.Which makes me look....dull or bored or sleepy....  huh :( . When I was growing up,I was called a China Doll....have heard comments...like { goshhh,her parents are so good looking,even good looking couples can have ugly kids } Lolzzzz......  showing all those people a finger ( _I_ ).... At age 23,I won the Crown, nothing biggy but,I was the WINNER...it was the city level contest,I have also modeled for a couple of renowned magazines.I feel confident when I wear some makeup,I just darken my eyebrows and use some eye liner and Voila !!!. I feel, the need to reveal myself,devoid of any makeup.Would you see me as the same person?? Am I being evaluated for the out ward beauty or is it the inner beauty you have come to see ?? Would You still,enjoy the company of a plain,natural Simple Me ?? Or is it the make up that baffled Thee ?

           After the birth of my two beautiful Babies and stretching my Tummy to its maximum,which has thus resulted in,extra skin and stretch marks...( the secret is, I disliked to see myself naked in the mirror ).... It took Me a while to accept every inch of "Me" and to "Love Me". I treat those stretch marks as a "Beautiful Gift of Motherhood". Hubby dear loves me anyway,every way,what ever way,which ever way...... He asks me to be just "Me"..... and,go all  "Au Naturel " ~~~~~ its not so difficult to Love Yourself,Love those Dimples on your thighs,just like you would Love them on ur Cheeks...Its okay to be a little rounded or chubby its no biggy. After all.. beneath all that... is that Beautiful Heart,and that Loving Nature....Which I cherish~~~~

                               ~~~~Loving Myself~~~~